To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
e. e. cummings
When it comes to body image you learn in elementary school that you should love your body the way it is. By the time you hit middle school that image is usually shot to hell because of the media and most of all your peers. Then before you know it you are in high school and you see the girls no eating or eating very little becuase they are fat! Boo freaking hoo!!! Well lets just say I have never been one of those girls. I love food and I love the way I am. Most girls hate the way they look and I'm not going to lie there are things I would like to change but until then I'm pretty happy. I would like to thank my dearest grandma for blessing me with what I like to call the tripple threat, The bubble butt, the huge greek birthing hips, and we can't forget the thighs! Recently I have been so in love with my booty that it is not even funny. I even went and tried on pants, I hate trying on pants but let me tell you my butt looked damn good in them. Its just this perfect bubble that is so cute and round. All I can wish for is that other people, mostly young girls can realize that its not normal or even healthy to be a size double 0!!! I want girls to know that its okay to have curves and embrace them and be thankful for the body you have!
I'm not going to lie... I have the best friends a girl could ask for but considering the circumstances some of those friends haven't been the greatest in the last couple of years. I still love my friends but they have reminded me that family is where its at. I have a huge family and I love it... even all the drama... and I can't wait to have my own huge family. I have the best sister in the whole world she makes me laugh so hard and I love every minute I get to spend with her. Even though when we were younger it didn't seem like we would ever get along. Recently I have become so much closer to My cousin Jessica. I know she will take care of me if I ever needed her to. She has basically taken me under her wing and is the acting big sister since mine far away. Going away to college has also brought me closer to another one of my cousins. We were always really close but now that we don't see eachother very often the time we do get to share is just that much greater and as I sit here and think of all the good times we had two of them stick out in my mind... the time I cut all of her curly hair off and the time she suggested we play desk tag and I was severley wounded! I love kesley with everything I have and I'm so glad I have her in my life. Kelsey's younger sister Lindsay and I have gotten closer over the last few years. I will never forget the times we shared with lamo in freshman basketball. Those were some of the funnest times of my life and I wouldn't trade them for the world. So many people have influenced and mad an impact on my life, these are the ones that I just feel so much more recently and I love my family so much and I don't know what I would ever do without them. They are the world to me.
1. Murry, Utah Enough Said 2. Northwest Airlines Who doesn't check baggage... they are making bank... and they scare the hell out of you when they turn the exit light on when you are landing... and what ever happened to that cute bag of peanuts nope they charge ya now! 3. Obi one the gps Shes such a big B word! don't yell at me like that and the least you could do was say pleas when you tell me to turn left! 4. Extended stay delux hotel Um hello the toilet usually needs to flush... and non smoking rooms shouldn't smell like fresh smoke! 5. Out of state tuition I'm already paying a shit ton of money to go to your damn school and just because I'm not from there you think you can charge me more! 6. People with Small feet Okay my feet are huge I get that but still I should be able to have the same shoes as other girls but no I get to wear man soes! 7. Cell Phone Salesmen at the Mall Okay its pretty bad when you know who I am and I know you by name because you ask me the same damn question everytime I walk by and the answer is still the same!! 8.Stupid boys sending mixed signals Cant ya just grow a pair and let me know how you really feel I mean come on give me something to work with! 9. Stupid girls Hello How old are we... lets pretend just for a sec that I cared about who did what to who 10.Hotel Towels I mean really those things are tiny they wouldn't even fit around my 4 year old neice!
Okay these are the lyrics to my most recent favorite T.I. song off of his newest ablum Paper Trail, No Matter What. I feel like it's the soundtrack to my life right now and it makes me see that it is going to be okay.
Yeah. yeah. yeah. aye. Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, I say still I stand Hey shorty here I am
Never have ya seen in ya lifetime A more divine southern rapper wit a swag like mine Facing all kind of time But smile like I'm fine Brag with such passion and shine without trying Believe me pain's a small thing to a giant I was born without a dime Out the gutter I climbed Spoke my mind And didn't stutter one time Ali say even the greatest gotta suffer some time So I huff and puff rhymes Lyrics so sick with it Set the standard in Atlanta How to get get get it So you up and coming rappers wanna dis just kill it I'm officially the realest Point blank period Whether I still live in the hood or just visit Whatever you can do in the hood I done did it That why the dope boys and the misfits feel it This still his city as long as tip living (listen)
[Chorus] I ain't dead (no) I ain't done (no) I ain't scared (of what!) I ain't run (from who!) But still I stand (yeah) No matter what VA here I am(Yeah) No matter what remember I ain't break (never) I ain't fold (never) They hate me more (so!) Yeah I know There I go (yeah) No matter what shorty here I go No matter what shorty
You let the blog sites and the magazines tell it I'm sure to be in jail till 2027 Rather see me in a cell in- Stead of this new McLaren God'll take you through hell just to get you to heaven So even know its heavy the load I will carry Grin and still bear it Win and still share it Apologies to the fans I hope you can understand it Life can change ya directions Even when you ain't planned it All you can do is handle it The worst thing you could do is panic Use it to your advantage Avoid insanity manage to conquer Every obstacle Make impossible possible Even when winnings illogical Losing's still far from optional Yeah they wanna see you shot up in the hospital But one life throw punches, block ya counter like a boxer do Been locked inside my case too long I did a song to make it known that the king lives on (Pimping)
[Chorus]
Even in solitude There's still no hotter dude I show you how to do What you do You ain't got a clue All you do is follow dudes Sound like a lot of dudes I weather whatever storm Make it out without a bruise I understand why Now wit my hands tied They take shots cause if I'm out there it's a land slide But revenge is best served as a cold dish And suckers will get served better know this Guess it was understood for me it was over with But I don't quit if ya ain't notice yet They couldn't wait to say good night shorty So they can try to rhyme act and look like shorty Go get a beat from Toomp? and make a hook like shorty Before ya know it I'm back What it look like shorty I lost my partner and my daughter in the same year Somehow I rise above my problems and remain here Yeah and I hope the picture painted clear If ya heart filled with faith then ya cant fear Wonder how I face years and I'm still chillin' Easy, let go and let god deal wit it
Okay so one of my best friends mom need a liver transplant and she was put on the list at number 2 and we were stoked finaly things were starting to look up. The hospital got a liver and called the person that was number one and they told the hospital that they couldn't be there in time so they called momma lisa she was about to take the pills and on her way out when they called back and told her that the person before her was going to take it! I was so irate I could harley control myself I was so mad but so sad all at the same time I didn't know if I should cry or punch a whole in my wall. Now momma lisa is super down and isn't positive at all. Then the thought of living organ donation comes to mind. Where if the person matches they would take 60% of their liver and give it to momma lisa because the liver is an organ that after a period of time grows back to full size. I am the same blood type as momma lisa and if the tissue typing is the same I could be that living donor. I think the reason it hits so close to home is because when my brother was 15 he recieved a liver transplant and I guess I feel like its my way of giving back. I'm the only one who really gets it and understand the waiting process. Its so hard to watch momma lisa get so much worse everytime I see her. There hasn't been much talk of me giving her part of my liver but I always still think about it pretty much everyday. I'm most scared to tell my paretns that I have been thinking about this because even though you would think they would understand I'm still so afraid they wouldn't because of some of the risks. I really just don't know what to do and I don't know what to say to Katie to make it seem a little easier.
Okay so this commercial kills me everytime I see it. I can not control myself and I just start laughing so hard! I love the look on his face! I even was flipping through the stations the other day and it came up and I stopped becuase I just had to watch it to get a good laugh!Its a commercial advertising the Marines and yes I agree the marines is not a laughing matter! What makes it so funny is my best friend is in the marines and this commercial is so serious and corny and that just isn't him, he is sacarsic and very hilarious! So it just makes me think why the hell did he join the marines... Its crazy but I still love him!!!!
Wow this weekend was crazy but so amazing all at the same time! On Friday we went to the T.I. and special guests concert which was a blast for sure! and Saturday it was none other than Disney on Ice that was also pretty bomin. To start when I heard that T.I. was coming to Salt Lake I knew I was going no matter what. I love him so much, he is definetly my favorite rapper. People probably don't know that he is very smart and also a very religous man. To prepare for the concert I listened to his newest cd all week and was getting so pumped for Friday night! I can not express how long that day felt. Being at work knowing that I was gonna see probably my favorite person in the whole world in a matter of hours, it killed me. We got to the concert about an hour and a half early becuase we were just so darn excited and couldn't take it anymore. Our seats were pretty amazing, floor seats 14 rows from the stage! Even the guy next to me was pretty good looking and about the second act I leaned over to tiff and I was like yo it smell like weed... sure enough the guys next to us were smokin! and all over the areana you could just see clouds of smoke it was so funny! When the love of my life came on he had like 5 layers on and about the 5th song in he was down to a wifebeater and he even took that off! I can't wait until he gets out of jail to do it all over again, because we all know that he will be writing some amazing songs in that year and one day!
As for disney on ice it's always good to feel like a kid again! I remeber the exact conversation that was had that decided that we were going. I saw a commercial for it and I asked, Tiff can we go to disney on ice and she answered the same way that she always does when I ask if we can do something, I don't see why not so that was that we were going! We parked the car and were walking to energy soulutions areana and she asked if I was as pumped and she was and of course the answer was Hells yeah! We walked in and went straight to the gift shops but do you think they have adult sizes for tshirts yeah thats a negative ghostrider! So we found our seats and enjoyed the show with all the other little kids and their parents and of course the kids at heart!
