Sunday, July 4, 2010

Ask Me What It's Like To Have Myself So Figured Out

It seems like everyone around me is getting married and having kids. Every time I turn around I have another invite to join a group because someone needs addresses for wedding announcements. This has brought 2 questions to my mind: 1. What are they thinking? If this is a way to make yourself feel like an adult, why are you in such a rush to grow up. You're only young once and you should enjoy the time that you can spend with your friends and the ones that bring out the best in you. I think what bothers me most about all this marriage talk is I don't understand it. You're young how can be certain you're in love and this other person is the one that will be what you want or need. There have been times that I have thought I was in love but now when I look back I'm not sure I could really give a straight answer about what I feel love really is. The whole high school sweetheart thing is another thing I don't get. Like yes, it is cute but again how can you know when there is so much more out there that the world has to discover. Why are you not going out to discover yourself and figure out what you want out of life. I just can't see myself giving up my dreams and ambitions for someone else. Being a student there are so much added stress of homework, tests, and projects why would you want to put that on top of the major stress of being married and supporting a family? The second question that comes to mind is what seems to be my problem? Yeah, I don't want the marriage or super serious relationship but is it to much to ask for a companion just to have someone to talk to and confide in. Or what is so unattractive about a girl who has a five year plan and knows what she wants out of life and has ambition. I am so sick of everyone asking the question of why I'm not married yet, well I will tell you why. I don't want to feel like my life is over after I get married. I want to experience what the world has to offer me. I don't think that marriage should be a cop out or just the next step. It is something that should mean the world to you and I know that when I believe I have figured out how to make myself happy and will be able to find someone that compliments that not completes.